I want it so bad!

I miss DD and I want it so bad! I miss being put across the bed and lectured about his expectations then being soundly spanked into submission. I miss the security, I miss the sting, I miss how I feel about Allan when it's over. I miss the scary "wait" knowing it's coming. I miss it all.

I am thinking about asking Allan to let us try to let me switch gears as needed, if I can. And I'm not even sure I can mentally process that. But some DD MUST be better than none!

I wonder if it's even possible for me to switch gears from what is needed, to what I desperately want.

Renee