tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7762820442689996032024-03-12T19:02:27.873-07:00His Yielded WifeThis is my story about my quest to become a 1950's yielded wife. Submission, Spankings, Sex and Safety in his arms. Renee Yieldinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07836691983237815040noreply@blogger.comBlogger25125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-776282044268999603.post-3810406970022920722019-06-08T11:13:00.001-07:002019-06-08T11:13:41.539-07:00School Girl Once MoreHi All,<br />
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Well, I've been gone a good while. That's because I decided to go back to school and it's taken up all my extra time. Psychology actually. Can't you just imagine my name on the door "Dr. Spankmybottom". I'm laughing just thinking about that. I've thought a few times about using Domestic Discipline as the topic for one of my research papers...I can just imagine the face of my Professor when they read that! I hope everyone is doing well. I'm about to go catch up on some much overdue blog reading.<br />
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Question??? If you have ever been to couples counseling, did you talk about your DD or TIH relationship? How did your therapist react? Or were you afraid to talk about this taboo subject?<br />
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ReneeRenee Yieldinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07836691983237815040noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-776282044268999603.post-36745143053962398482018-01-03T12:06:00.001-08:002018-01-03T12:06:46.470-08:00Submission StruggleLadies, hopefully you can help me out. How do you prepare yourself mentally for submission? Do you engage in any personal submission exercises to encourage your submission when it feels tough? Are there any little things you do for your husband to show you are approaching him with respect?Renee Yieldinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07836691983237815040noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-776282044268999603.post-12374974849886013852017-12-30T12:29:00.000-08:002017-12-30T12:29:32.361-08:00Reset and ReconnectI'm still here. It's been a year since my last post. Life threw some mega curve balls my way but I made it through. We shelved DD while we were dealing with family issues, but now I'm ready to do it again. At least, I think most of me is. The problem is that after such an absence, how to restart and reconnect where we once were?<br />
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First of all I remember the embarrassed feelings that overcame me in the beginning. Learning to be submissive, talking in terms of rules... It was all so strange and after such a lapse I know it will be that way again. So I'm nervous.<br />
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Next I know my motivation to do this matters. Is it to strengthen my marriage? Is it to strengthen myself through losing myself in submission? It it a sexual motivation? Because it made our sex life better. But then again, it just made our whole relationship better. It was a marriage saver.<br />
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And finally, how will he react? DD is so much more than spanking so is he up for the leadership it takes in our relationship? Is he up for dealing with the very uncomfortable conversations to start over. And how do I reconcile in my own mind and heart that he is a man who is not perfect, yet I'm going to let control go anyway. I've been mad at him for various reasons. I'm not sure if the anger will go away faster with DD or make it worse. I just remember how it healed before.<br />
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So many things are running through my head. Can this lifestyle really work long term? I wish it would.<br />
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I need support. Comment, email me. I remember having support from you guys once. I need it again.Renee Yieldinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07836691983237815040noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-776282044268999603.post-23304866474132763612016-12-07T18:16:00.002-08:002016-12-07T18:16:52.021-08:00My First Corner TimeJingle Bells Jingle Bells Jingle All The Way! Boy do I love Christmas time. I wish it could be Christmas all year round. I love the cold weather, the long pants, the lights, the food, I just love it all. And let's just be honest, we all have that one favorite Christmas movie that puts us in the Christmas spirit. My favorite Christmas movie is "ELF". I think I've seen it a couple dozen times but it makes me laugh and that's a good thing. <div>
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Things around our place have been going well. DD has been somewhat inconsistent but we have so much going on that it just fills the spaces we have time for. I wish it was different and maybe one day it will be. Allan has added a new element to our relationship and that is corner time. I had read about corner time and even chatted with a few girls who's HOH's incorporate it into their relationship, but I never thought it would be used for us. About two weeks ago Allan brought it up for the first time and at first I just thought he was joking around. Nope! </div>
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So far I've only been there once and it was far worse than I thought. It's a humbling experience. Panties down and standing quietly. It was genuinely a very reflective time as I knew what was to come. Knowing my husband was watching made this an intense experience for me. If it's supposed to bring out the submissive side, it works. Standing there before a spanking actually made me worry more about the spanking than usual. We are trying a few, what I will loosely refer to, as submission exercises. Maybe what Allan wants most for Christmas is more submission. I am definitely working on it!<br /><div>
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Renee Yieldinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07836691983237815040noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-776282044268999603.post-42278736264407080742016-11-02T12:16:00.001-07:002016-11-02T12:16:21.338-07:00The D WordHow do you put into words the things you have hiding in the deep recesses of your mind or heart? Or maybe the question should be, how do you bring certain subjects up "oh so delicately" when you are afraid of their reaction?<div>
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For me the answer to that question has never been easy. Domestic discipline opened up so many doors for dialogue and communication for Allan and I. And over time I've found it a little easier to bring up uncomfortable subjects because I've learned to trust him. However, there are still times I worry about his reaction.</div>
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I consider myself a Christian woman, and I have my morals. So when I have these deep feelings wash over me when I am with Allan I don't often understand them myself and I worry if what I'm feeling is immoral. There have been many days I've looked in the mirror and thought "Girl, you need to set up an appointment with a Counselor". I haven't so far, but maybe one day I will. For now I'm "EXPLORING" my feelings.</div>
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So I have this thing for Authority. Huh, imagine that, a TIH who loves authority, LOL. And Allan is older than me. So I've found this respect and admiration that I have for him brings to light these strange feelings that I guess many in pop culture would call "Daddy Issues". Yep I've got them BAD. </div>
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So one night I just tossed my fear out and called him Daddy, and OMG I loved it. All these things just started pouring out of me. He seemed to like it too. I know it's such a non-traditional and unusual thing but it's just happened and I'm processing it. It's honestly brought to light so many things I'm learning about myself. I never thought one little word could change me, but it did. I'm just wondering if there is anyone out there in blogland who feels the same?</div>
Renee Yieldinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07836691983237815040noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-776282044268999603.post-35172263744315912012016-10-14T07:15:00.001-07:002016-10-14T07:15:10.217-07:00Maybe a Spanking in the Garage?Life has been pretty stressful here in my town after the great flood that happened. While my house didn't flood, most did, so I've been keeping myself busy trying to help as I can. Most days I find myself taking charge of the situation, laying out plans, and keeping busy busy busy. It just seems to be in my nature. So a few days ago Allan comes home and says to me that I need to try to relax, put my feet up and chill out. I agree reluctantly, knowing full well my hyper-drive personality will make that nearly impossible. Let's be honest here. I need a little help from time to time. Yes, discipline is a help for me, getting my mind back to a clear place. I don't know if any other women feel the same way but I'd love to hear your thoughts on that. <div>
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So, with no immediate weekend plans on the horizon, I get to thinking. We need a space. A discipline space that I can go to for some re-set as needed. However, no such place really exists in our home. We've tried the bedroom, bathroom, etc.. but nothing is quiet enough. So, how about the garage? It's detached from the house right? Hummm....maybe with a little organization in there it might be an option. I mention this to Allan last night and I could see his wheels start turning. He's at work today, but if I know my husband, he's got it all worked out in his head already. I'm curious how this will turn out!</div>
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Renee Yieldinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07836691983237815040noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-776282044268999603.post-72980637048743067052016-08-26T13:05:00.002-07:002016-08-26T13:05:38.251-07:00The Great FloodHave you been watching the news? Did you hear about The Great Louisiana Flood of 2016. Well we are right in the middle of ground zero. Life got uprooted and thrown downriver, no pun intended. We watched the water come. It inched closer and closer and I cried. Everything we owned was shoved in the attic, in the tops of cabinets and our furniture went up on blocks. I remember standing on my front porch watching the Jon boats in the distance coming closer and closer and thinking that was a bad sign. In the end we stood dry, like an island with water all around us. Everyone we know and love flooded. 2 feet, 4 feet, even 8 feet in their homes. I still cried because I felt guilty.<br />
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Here is a little political satire for you. I don't know if you are Republican or Democrat but Donald Trump was on the ground here while Obama played golf. The media made it sound like it was bad he came but he came very quietly and donated over $100k to a local Church to help everyone here. He even brought an 18 wheeler of supplies. I've yet to see fema here. It's mostly local Church's and out of state Church's sending help.<br />
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It looks like something from a post apocolyptic movie here. I'm exhausted. I've cooked more food than I ever dreamed for volunteers, and waded through more disgusting water than I can stand. I'm tired of the smell, I'm tired of my kids fighting because everyone is on top of each other, I'm tired of the traffic coming to the one or two open grocery stores. I'm tired of early mornings and late nights of gutting home after home. And I'm so incredibly tired of the Government saying they're helping, when honestly other than a good amped up piece of journalism here or there, it feels like I live in a forgotten community of sad souls. I know this isn't a political blog, but damn it, I'm just tired.<br />
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My marriage is magically transformed through submission. It's so hard to explain. There is such freedom in submission for me. So, the plan is to bring it up tonight. I am nervous that after the break it might be hard to find a good rhythm again, but we will see.<br />
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<br />Renee Yieldinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07836691983237815040noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-776282044268999603.post-57277538339310349742016-07-30T08:26:00.003-07:002016-07-30T08:26:35.858-07:00Yay for Life!The past two years of my life have been horrific. Two major issues came crashing down on my family and hung over us like dark rain clouds. There were days I felt paralyzed in fear. DD was a great distraction but I just could not possibly focus on my submission when I was having to be SO STRONG every minute. It was a complete disaster trying to embody both strength and submission in my own head. Maybe others can work that out, but I just couldn't. And I felt alone. I felt like no one could possibly understand what it was like to be facing such a massive giant, let alone two at once, like I was. I looked around at friends and family and envied their complaints about issues like money or weight loss. I questioned why me a thousand times.<br />
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So these two particular issues had no known expiration date. The future looked dim and I was depressed. But then, like a lightning bolt straight to my heart I received a phone call one day. It was a miracle, a MIRACLE BEYOND MIRACLES, and issue number one....my horrific nightmare, was suddenly, unexpectedly....O-V-E-R! I actually dropped to my knees and began sobbing the most wonderful warm tears of joy I've ever felt. I thanked God and I called my family one by one sharing the news. That day was a wonderful blur of thankfulness and joy. I feel like I have been an almost different person since that day. Stress is a very real thing and can remove you from the person you truly are. I am testament to that!<br />
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So yes, issue number two still remains. But now I have hope. Because when I tell you issue number one was at one time hope-LESS, I do not lie. Yay for life! Yay for hope!<br />
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I am thinking about asking Allan to let us try to let me switch gears as needed, if I can. And I'm not even sure I can mentally process that. But some DD MUST be better than none!<br />
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ReneeRenee Yieldinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07836691983237815040noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-776282044268999603.post-89362012599883761472016-03-29T19:31:00.001-07:002016-03-29T19:31:43.166-07:00I was missing in actionHi All,<br />
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I've been out for a while. Behind the computer screen I have this very big and full life that pulls me in all directions like the old Stretch Armstrong doll from the 80's. And that's exactly how I feel now....stretched and stretched and about to come apart at my seams.<br />
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I'm not happy. I was happy....DD makes me happy but it is on hold now. There were some major life events that took it's toll on me and I had to put that on the shelf. It wasn't just because I was busy with kids or a job, I am just unable to put myself in a place psychologically right now that is needed to be submissive.<br />
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I am trying my best just to keep it all together until these "events" have passed. One day I would like for all these problems to be behind me and just have my regular life worries to juggle again. On that day I welcome DD back. I miss it so much! The sad thing is that I probably need it more now ever :(<br />
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Do you feel like your head has been cleared after a spanking? I do. And according to Allan he feels more focused after he spanks me. I think it's because during that time both partners are focused on each other. I'm still holding true to my position that I do not enjoy the pain, but I do like the after-effect on my attitude and my submission and connection to Allan. After a spanking and a good crying I am in a good subby place for a while.</div>
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As I'm reading blogs and viewing photos I start to wonder if Allan spanked me like "THAT" how would I be different. And he has wondered it too. We had a short conversation about it a few weeks ago and we both admitted to wondering the same. And Allan admitting he thought it was a conversation we need to start having. That made me nervous but curious too. </div>
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Renee Yieldinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07836691983237815040noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-776282044268999603.post-35839569206689730262015-12-19T08:19:00.001-08:002015-12-19T08:19:24.809-08:00My Interstate Hero<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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So last night began as a pretty normal night. We were heading to dinner when a tire blew out and we were stranded on the side of the interstate. Allan did what he does and pulled all the necessary tools out to change the tire. I held the flashlight, watching as he starting turning the tire wrench and pulling lug nuts off the tire. Even in the deep South we have a few chilly winters and last night it was even windy and cold (for us, LOL). I was in a skirt and doing my best to be a good helper despite the chilly weather.</div>
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But we soon ran into a problem. The lug nuts were stripped because the tire shop had used that big loud air compressed tool to tighten them. So there was no tread to turn them off the tire. I watched as Allan studied the ones he had removed that weren't stripped. He turned them over and over in his hand. Then out came his big pocket knife and some other tools. Long story short....these lug nuts had metal covers on them. I watched as my tarzan man-handled these metal bolts and ripped the metal covers off of them by hand. This was no easy feat. Allan is a big strong guy and it took a great deal of grunting and effort to get them off. When the last one finally ripped open and I watched him pull it off, he smiled up at me from the windy dark interstate. I think a little piece of my heart melted from the smile but a whole bunch of pieces were feeling submissive and girly watching him save the day.</div>
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<span style="background-color: white;"><span style="background-color: white; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><b><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "utopia" , "palatino linotype" , "palatino" , serif;"><span style="color: #20124d;">Ronald Reagan</span><br /><br /><br /><span style="color: #b7b7b7;"> </span></span><br style="color: #b7b7b7; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;" /><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "utopia" , "palatino linotype" , "palatino" , serif;"><span style="color: #b7b7b7;">15. Does your husband prefer coffee or tea?</span><br /><span style="color: #0c343d;">Neither. I think he loves them both. He only drinks hot coffee, never iced coffee, but he loves sweet iced tea. We are from the south after all.</span><br /><br /><span style="color: #b7b7b7;"> </span></span><br style="color: #b7b7b7; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;" /><span style="color: #b7b7b7; font-family: "georgia" , "utopia" , "palatino linotype" , "palatino" , serif;">16. Does your man know how to dance? Is it something you both enjoy?</span><br style="color: #b7b7b7; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, 'Palatino Linotype', Palatino, serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px;" /><span style="color: #0c343d;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "utopia" , "palatino linotype" , "palatino" , serif;">Yes, but don't laugh. He learned most of it in country music bars while living abroad in the military. He's a great slow dancer but not so much the fast stuff.</span></span></b></span></span>Renee Yieldinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07836691983237815040noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-776282044268999603.post-52953325991166481962015-12-15T09:53:00.001-08:002015-12-15T09:53:27.966-08:00Stranded<div style="text-align: justify;">
I am stranded today. My keys are in Allan's truck hours away and my car is sitting in the garage taking the day off. I do not like this Sam I am. But on another note I am getting some good reading in blog land today.</div>
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Renee Yieldinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07836691983237815040noreply@blogger.com7tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-776282044268999603.post-11066317596307854392015-12-13T10:34:00.000-08:002015-12-13T10:34:30.033-08:00Am I missing something?So with the great cookie exchange, Love Our Lurkers, Etc... I am wondering if maybe there is a better way to connect with other bloggers or couples in the DD community. Does it just take time or is there some fantastic forum I am missing? Any comments will be appreciated.Renee Yieldinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07836691983237815040noreply@blogger.com7tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-776282044268999603.post-15059058631202311172015-12-07T11:38:00.000-08:002015-12-07T11:38:11.661-08:00The Spanking Timer<div style="text-align: justify;">
There is this place that I vacationed once. It wasn't my favorite vacation but in my mind I can still see myself there, in this one particular spot, standing and looking out over the calm water. I remember that in order to get to that place I had to walk along a very long narrow wooden pier. But as I walked I knew that there would be peace at the end. That is what discipline is like for me. Let me explain...</div>
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In my last post I talked about how I had a punishment spanking coming. But as it turned out we had a wonderful date night opportunity pop up unexpectedly and Allan took me out on the town. It was such a great night and early in the evening I had my suspicions that no spanking would be happening. Thankfully I was right and we spent a romantic date together doing all kinds of fun and Christmasy type things late into the night. Our weekend continued on as planned and I thought he had forgotten. I was wrong!</div>
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Last night we had just gotten the kids all put to bed and I was getting cozy on the sofa after a busy weekend. The show we were watching ended and I asked if he wanted to watch something else. But all he could say was "Bedroom now". Yikes! I complied. We went to the bedroom and he ordered the pajama pants and panties off. He started lecturing about how I had been so disobedient last week and he finally had the opportunity to deal with it. I knew I was about to get it. But then something different....his phone came out. He set the timer to ten minutes and told me to get over his knee. I crawled across his lap and grabbed a pillow to squeeze.</div>
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Now, a maintenance spanking probably wouldn't be so bad on a timer. But a punishment spanking, at least under Allan rule, had me crying Alligator tears about 7 minutes in. I squirmed and wiggled and kicked my way through it but there was no getting away from that timer. When it was over I was a sobbing mess and was thoroughly regretting not taking the nap I had been told to take. Nap Vs. the Timer equalls a no brainer.</div>
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Renee Yieldinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07836691983237815040noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-776282044268999603.post-41785380626522624232015-12-04T09:35:00.002-08:002015-12-04T09:35:56.587-08:00Daddy's Belt, and why I need it!Let me start off by saying that I am not a masochist. I do not enjoy pain in any way so there is no part of me that wants to be spanked for the pain. And when I say Daddy I am referring to my husband Allan. He's not my Father, but he is the HOH and Daddy in our home. So with those things aside let's talk about why I need Daddy's belt.<br />
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Here's a little background information. I was married once before right out of High School. I was an overachiever who was a CEO by 23 years old, and he was a man child. I do not say that with any disrespect for men, but this guy was a train wreck in regards to harnessing his masculinity. He did not take charge of anything, fix anything broken or keep a job. I was at times the sole bread winner and had to be on my A game all the time because of his short comings. I knew that I was unhappy and needed out badly. That marriage ended after a few years and life went on. But what stuck with me was the need for control.<br />
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Along comes Allan in my mid twenties. By this time I knew myself well enough to know I wasn't looking for a repeat. I wanted someone who could take the wheel and let me take a step back. Allan was my guy. Everything about him screamed dominant. He was at least a foot taller than me and a hundred pounds larger. Broad shoulders, Veteran Military, leadership position at work. He loved to spoil me and take care of me and for the first time ever I felt submissive. I was smitten! We got married, had a family and made a life.<br />
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Now back then I didn't know what submission was. I just knew we were in this wonderful dynamic where I loved caring for him and he took good care of me and our family. But as time went on things changed. Each time we would hit a hurdle in life my need to fix the situation came blazing back over and over again. Over time my need to control was back in full swing. I ran my household like a well oiled machine. To me that was justification for my need to control. There was just one problem with that....you can't have two bosses. Although I was the only one that needed to feel submissive, I was often volleying for control against Allan. What started as a great dynamic had turned into two very frustrated people.<br />
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Over time I realized how destructive this was. I realized that I was killing my own submissive spirit and that submission was something I needed VERY BADLY. As I told Allan "left to my own devices, I will rule the world". And I do not want that much responsibility no matter how much it might seem like it when I am racing for power to control whatever needs to be done around here.<br />
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These days I am a work at home wife and Mom. I still keep a clean house and try to over manage just about everything, but there is one exception. I am not allowed to over manage. Because Daddy has a belt that can yank me out of boss lady mode and force me to focus on my submission when needed.<br />
Submission is critical for me and it is my choice. Not because I was brainwashed like some liberals might want to say, but because it actually makes me feel better, calmer and more peaceful. I choose this!<br />
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So here I sit knowing what is coming tonight. Yesterday I was doing my thing, stressing myself out in full blown clean the house, manage my job and kids mode. It wasn't going well because after days of this over the holidays I was exhausted. Allan calls from work and tells me to take a break and go lay down while the kids were napping. I agreed....but...... No I didn't do it I just kept plugging along with my chores until the kids woke up. He came home early and asked if I napped. I said yes to appease him. He's a smart guy and figured out pretty quickly that there was no pillow or blanket on the sofa.<br />
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Today I get a message from him to be ready tonight. I know what he means and I know that he sent it to me early in the day so I would think about it all day. It means punishment spanking for being dishonest. He always says that I won't care for myself unless he makes it happen and yes that is true. Maybe that is another aspect of submission. The internal desire to serve others puts us on the back burner. So despite what I want, I know what I need. And sometimes for lack of a better term it is to be put back in a submissive place.<br />
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I KNOW I am a control freak. I get it! But just because it is taking me longer than some doesn't mean I don't want it. He wasn't mad. He just said that I was giving him mixed signals because on one hand I said I wanted this, but on the other hand I still take the reigns so tightly.<br />
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Inside my safe place you wrap your big strong arms around me. I bury my head into your chest and hear your heartbeat. That is where I belong.</div>
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Inside my safe place you are my leader. You fix the broken whether it be my bad day or my car. I know you will pick up the phone when I call because that is who you are.</div>
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Inside my safe place you are my disciplinarian. You pull me across your lap and place your hand on the small of my back. You tell me that you love me, and tell me that you are my leader. You remind me of your strength. Then you kiss away my tears and hold me close.</div>
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Renee Yieldinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07836691983237815040noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-776282044268999603.post-88463565006413053542015-11-19T11:40:00.001-08:002015-11-19T11:40:32.624-08:00My gypsy soul - My painful bottom<div style="text-align: justify;">
<span style="color: #6fa8dc;">Yes, a very painful reminder today of my dishonesty yesterday. Oh if I could just go back and tell the truth. Well, technically I did tell the truth but it took me a while to do it and my bottom paid a high price last night.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #6fa8dc;">It was after dinner and after the kids had gone to bed that I got the very stern "meet me in the bedroom". I asked him to give me a minute because, well, I just needed to come to grips with what was happening. Earlier in the night I had come clean about a little issue that he didn't feel was such a little issue so as I was standing there in the bathroom I knew exactly what he meant. </span></div>
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<span style="color: #6fa8dc;">Well darn, I had been on a roll....a small roll, but it had been about a week I had been a very good girl. I was cooking and baking, being all domestic and all the things my 1950's type hubby loves. But my mouth, oh my mouth, why do you betray me?</span></div>
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<span style="color: #6fa8dc;">Ok, so exiting the bathroom made my knees weak. Followed promptly be the knee pat and the "panties down". If you have never heard those words in that voice then you have never truly felt the weak knees of DD. I took the dowel rod first, then cried for anything else. He met my request with a hard swat of his hand. (I have a love hate relationship with those hands). I buried my head into a pillow and cried. Each swat harder than before, then they came faster. Over and over and over, I thought they would never end. I tried hard not to kick and wiggle but couldn't. My hands swung behind me and were met with a quick pinning behind my back and then my legs met the same fate. He lectured, and I cried. He lectured then I sobbed. I begged for him to stop and finally he did. </span></div>
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<span style="color: #6fa8dc;">The sobbing got worse and all the guilt I felt and other emotions bubbled over to the surface. Allan pulled me into his lap and I stayed there a good while until all the sad faded away. He told me he loved me over and over and I know he does.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #6fa8dc;">He is wonderful like that, and after the discipline and the comfort I fell into his arms for the kind of comfort only he can give me. And I am usually all too eager to oblige. I wake up feeling wonderful, happy loved, adored, protected, but yes....still with an aching bottom.</span></div>
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Renee Yieldinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07836691983237815040noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-776282044268999603.post-55853640769981753952015-11-18T17:24:00.001-08:002015-11-18T17:24:57.166-08:00This little DD CommunityI just want to say how much it has helped to find that there is this amazing community of people out there in DD/TTWD/TIH blog and chat land. When I first started reading about DD online I mostly just found some pretty rigid instructional websites. That honestly turned me off a bit. I knew it all sounded interesting and like something that could help our marriage but those websites seemed a little cold.<br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I titled this post In the land of "first". Because that's exactly where we are. We are in the place where there is a lot of firsts happening (is that a word?). Let me explain.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">We have yet to put a label on our little dynamic even though Allan doesn't feel the need to. I on the other hand am navigating articles and blogs and soaking in every resource I can find because honestly I still have that nagging feeling somewhere deep down that wonders why I am so drawn to this lifestyle, and why it is changing my relationship with Allan so intensely. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I feel like our relationship has been set on fire. I feel his presence when he is near me. A look, or a stern word can ignite a feeling in me that I have never felt before. And as we dive into domestic discipline there have been a lot of things happening for the first time. Like my first punishment spanking. I was a little disrespectful, over him messing up my hair of all things, and earned myself quite a spanking. It took me offguard but it is now out of the way and I am less nervous about having to overcome that first one. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Then there is the first time I told him that I wanted rules because that made me feel more secure. It made me feel like I would know what was expected of me. See, that was a double first because I asked for rules and I was honest about wanting them. I've found that I am having such a hard time being honest about my feelings about domestic discipline. Maybe in time this will get easier. </span></div>
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Renee Yieldinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07836691983237815040noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-776282044268999603.post-91858772714057505822015-11-06T09:35:00.002-08:002015-11-18T17:41:18.751-08:00Exploring DD - My confusing feelings<div style="text-align: justify;">
<span style="color: cyan; font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">I remember the first night we "opened the door" to DD. The next day was so strange for me. I woke up feeling calm. Over the next few nights we talked as openly as I could about how we felt, what was happening between us, and our expectations. So I know we are at the starting line here, but we have decided that for now we will practice DD in our own way. </span></div>
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<span style="color: cyan; font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">I heard Chelsea from <a href="http://learningdd.com/blog/">http://learningdd.com/blog/</a> on a podcast talk about how many couples practice DD in different ways. I think I agree it should not be a one size fits all situation. I suppose we are going to figure this out together, but my feelings are so jumbled up right now.</span></div>
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Renee Yieldinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07836691983237815040noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-776282044268999603.post-87427823607217677252015-11-06T08:26:00.003-08:002015-11-06T08:26:59.058-08:00Renee Has Yielded<div style="text-align: justify;">
<span style="background-color: white; color: #741b47; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">This is my first post. I decided to start my own blog because I have been pouring over every article I could find on DD and TTWD for weeks, trying to better understand it, and why in a Months time it has transformed my marriage so completely. I want a way to connect myself to a place where this is ok, this thing we do, whatever it may be.</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #741b47; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I always knew that I wanted this. I can't remember at what age or why, just that I wanted to submit. But there was one problem which was I have a strong independent personality which was courtesy of my upbringing. My family was evangelical, and I loved it. My Dad was a soft spoken and kind man and my Mom was a stay-at-home Mom who was the discipline figure for us kids. She was always in control and wanted to raise her daughters the same way. She said our church taught that wives should submit to their husbands, but she knew she couldn't and I shouldn't feel I had to. But deep down I was a girl, and I knew I wanted a strong masculine man. I wanted to be gentle and wear skirts and bake things. I wanted to submit but my pride, and the fear of being seen as weak was in the way. </span></div>
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #741b47; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Then, after much talking and heartfelt conversations with my husband (Allan), I told him what I wanted. I wanted our own version of DD, and he was on board. And as it turned out it was what he "needed". The change I have seen in him has been amazing. He took on this role so naturally and it has made me see him in a new light. We spent almost a decade going in the wrong direction. But suddenly, Renee has yielded. What has taken place in the past month can not even be put into words. I am submitted, I am yielded and suddenly I am alive. </span></div>
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